My first:

movie : Matrix. Keanu Reeves. watched it at local cinema with Lan Roni. i spent the next two or three days blabbing about how shit it was and i didnt understand anything about it. particularly on Neo switching from real world to digital world. fcuk it. still dont get it.

'fly' from hostel: i should say first and last. and it was during day time! again with Lan Roni. went to watch Matrix.

puff of smoke: nenek's rokok daun. without tobacco. it was bitter. i was nenek preferretti to go buy cigars.

cigar: never

drugs: never in puff. or by inhaling. but in other way of intake yes i did swallow some tablets. and liquids. ubat batuk laaaa what were u thinking?

car: the one i currently drive. but the first car i took the wheel was dad's Proton Megavalve. it wasnt a drive actually. what happened was i started the car with first gear in place. the car sort of jumped and put a dent onto house's wall.

motorcycle: honda c80 at neneks house. wasnt mine. i rode it around the house.

pizza: i think it was.. standard 1. or form 1. didnt like it at all because of the vegetable. i dont like vegetable. at all.

girl i like: cant remember but someone from my sekolah rendah. but nothing came out of it. cinta monyet la katekan.

bully in school: the first week at sekolah menengah. i wasnt the one bullying. neither that was a 'bullying' but orientation week. u know that deal. the first real one, also form 1. it made me big name. i was the big daddy after that.

obscene words/ gesture: standard six. me and fauwaz. we shouted something. was it FUCK OFF or SHUT. obviously we copied the films. now fauwaz is a penceramah jemputan. and i am doing my phd. we werent that bad. right?

tilawah alquran: my first and last. it was a competition. standard 4 or 5.

adik angkat akak angkat: adik angkat when i was primary school. akak angkat was two or three years older, when i was standard 5 or 6. she asked me to be in this angkat-angkat thing.

sporting competition: hockey and bola baling when i was primary school. me and my bro we two were the backbone for the school in all sports we played

spending the night without my family: very small. i was looked after by dad's relative when i was small wee kid. they even called me a siamese nickname. 'agoy'

internet exposure: MIRC was the biggest influence but it was a dail up online game of FIFA with my mate Lan Roni when i was Form 2 or something. ICQ was the 'YM' we used.

educational camp: standard 4. slept on the desk, table. mosquitoes. very uncomfortable

man united shirt: Post PMR. i made my dad promised one A equals 100 bucks. i scored straight all 8. so i went to buy the only man united shirt i owned so far.

drama of which i acted in it: it was a pantomime when i was standard 5. we performed at MPSAH and rewarded with 3day2night trip to kelantan terengganu. i played the daddy.

live band: straight years from Standard 3 till 5. i played keyboard and some singing. one very good reason i was in it because it was English club band.

english teacher: Official one is Rosli Saidin. we called him Sir Rosli. he also a great football teacher. never see him again since he was transferred away from my primary school.

public canning: Form 5. excessive misuse of power and was stripped off Prefect Unit.

literature piece: Hansel and Greetle. and one that tells a story about woman wolf cooking a lost child, i forgot what its called.

tv game: sega something. wasnt mine. but the f1 game was super cool.

doll: a zebra that gives squeaking sound when u squeeze it. cried when my mom threw it away.

PC: an RM 4,000 + 386 processor PC dad bought. it had floppy disk and mostly he used that for typing etc etc.

girlfriend: real one. uni years. she married.

board a plane: never as my memory serves. probably when i was still inside my mom's tummy she flied here and there

ghost encounter: never, but was scared stiff when people were talking about hantu susu last time. i had to be put in sleep with my mom beside me

accident: rode a bike and the handle broken. had to carry broken bike home. kept a straight face while carrying that bike in front of the neighbors, but cried so much when got home.

neighbor i hate: that old was very harsh with us. we were playing badminton one afternoon and for what seems to be silly stuff he scolded us so hard. i still hate him till now and refuse to give him way if i could. i dont smile at him. i never go to his house. at all.

hard earned salary: a short, 3 month stint at Montkiara working as telephonist. very good pay.

among the things i dont get it is why people bother to go watch award ceremonies i.e grammys, golden globe, AIM, whatevers. yes if u are a celebrity u might have to attend those because of the obligations or for the purpose of ur career, but ordinary people is what i cant understand why they got to do some serious effort watch such things

serious effort means, u know, take day off at work and sit front of ur tv set. just for u to watch it on telly. and as far as i can work out such awards ceremonies are held at nights at respective venues which means, my poor maths tell me they are on screen at mornings here in malaysia. so in order to watch it LIVE on telly, they who are interested must not attend to work or school. and if that person works in the evenings, his or her morning is spent watching the show instead of resting up and restoring energy for working later the day

its not i am anti to these singers actor actress award giving thing. it just i dont think as a normal ordinary person i need to forge an extra effort in watching somebody wins something. and i dont get it why people want to do that. asalkan bahgia?
hahaha. easy!

studying is hard. really. i am finishing up my work and as day goes by i felt more and more lazy to get this done. not to the extent i am quitting but rather the close this gets to finishing the more my body and mind becomes not interested. but i am determine to get this all done and dusted.


valentines day is another reason for people to hate something. forgive me if i sound cocky but as a man i dont think i need valentines day to show my love to anyone. my valentines day is 365 days 24/7 throughout the year baby!
all these saying about this VD is a borderline religious matter that if u celebrate it then people may say u are out of the line in term of aqidah. which may be true but what about people who really love each other and by accident the day is 14 feb? i dont know what the term of aqidah matter but i believe it has something to do with 'if u do as they do, then u are one of them' thing. of course this is out of what i am capable of therefore i will refrain on commenting on it. but as far as showing love as concern, i think i am doing that on everyday basis.

some say men become tactless after marriage then, well, too bad for u it turned out not as what u expected. its dimmed yes and u are stucked with it. u got nothing but a bag of bones and meat, and u HAVE to be happy regardless if u really are. u HAVE to. because a ordinary, normal man value marriage as an opportunity to show my love even more and with boundless boundaries between a man and his wife, i'm pretty sure the bravery, adventuresome, risky businesses, and every single dating skills will be made use to maximum. and i am pretty sure there are LOTS of men just like me who savior the institution of marriage and embrace it as a window for a bigger things to come.

haha. i dont know if i got to pay royalty fees for this man photo.
but i am pretty sure i dont need to for the next guy. bwahahahaha.


face off.

Haihh.entahlah.people say mind ur own bisnes.which is right if the bisnes is something u dont need to intefere.

But if bisnes yg betul2 u feel need to intefere,cana lak? So the borderline is, how u differentiate what bisnes u can or need to ambik pot. Or u cant.

For me personally -and prolly most decent human beings - u have the right or can or need to intefere if it has something to do with fundamental items i.e religion, basic human rights.

Interfering doesnt necessarily by action.it could be by saying or maybe feeling.

I interfered because one big reason (friend) and basic concious of religion, or humanity, that it was a wrong act. I was there not to solve things up. I was there because i cannot see it ends well with the approaches taken, and the prospect of living in guilt if i didnt even try to do something.who knows.

Impossible for you with such attitude to find a rightful solution. Precedented moves just made it very hard to find a middle ground or atleast buy time to sort things up.believe me,nobody can solve this except u.or rather nobody wants to. I dont. U said u prefer other way of dealing. But lets not forget, ur preferred way doesnt necessarily preferred by others. Having said that u need to find a solution nontheless. And either u or them to back down.with seriousness this is become, i cant see them backing off. Certainly not u because u dont do that.

So thats where u need a middle ground. Thats where i come into picture.

Believe me, if u got the moves right this wont be this bad. And believe me,i am very good in this.

Call me arrogant if u want but within less than 2 days i managed to do what people do in...perhaps a month.

Or some people will never be able to do, if u continue this preferred way of doing bisnes.

heres the current jam. i wondered who it was at first and i thought it is somekind county music which isnt quite popular here. i heard it on 98.1 which is ... er.. hitz? i dont think so. fly? ah tak ingat la. buat it was on 98.1 in my car



generally my music is something i understand and pleases me. i listen to rock sometimes pink flyods, bon jovis, etc but i can say easy musics like this song something i prefer btw. and the clip also kinda nice.

i am not sure when exactly i listen to music. i mean some people they like to hear songs on rainy days or during evenings, u know, they like what they like. but i usually listen to songs or musics on the radio whenever i am in the car. which means go and forth from my rent house to usm, or from here to my dad's place in kedah. or if i travel, which now i havent got time or rather cause to.

but between now and sometime in near future i think i'd like to pay a visit to a family in segambut KL. they share what i feel which is not much actually compare to what they had been through. but thats more than enough to make them family.

seriously i feel for fernando torres. to whom dont know that guy, he is the most expensive premier league footballer at a cost of 50 million pound. he is a striker whose naturally is asked to score goals and judging by his 5-10 goals so far, it seems a goal is at 10 million a pop. which of course a very expensive affair

living up to price tag or a rather simple layman word, expectation, does put a lot in the mind of who is expected. 50 million for example, people definitely be thinking 'this guy will win us the holy grail' or be expected to score regularly if not in each of the games he plays, but the fact that matter is, the mind gets burden with unnecessary entanglements.

whatever u do, if u do it with messy head of course it will not be nice.



just done watching victoria secrets fashion show. of course my eyes were fixed at massive show of whatever-u-know-lah. tipu le if i say i did not stare to those fantastic bombastic stuffs on show. but another amazing thing i saw was how fit these birds were.

apart from the flat tummy,of course thats the most essential i guess?, the bodies were great. i am not talking about the buxom thing. but the curves. the way they tanned the figure. sweet lord i believe they must have got techniques to maintain their bodies super good these super model.

and the smiles. i still trying to figure how these models just know when and how to smile. just perfect at most right moment.
and of course they got maroon 5 performing in the midst of the show.

good.

thighs and stockings.
they both are designed to do the same job.
but they dont

a pair of thigh are comfortable, practical but a pair of stockings are more exciting

just imagine thigh vs ... er... fishnet stockings?
does that make sense?

hahaha

i want my life to be full of stockings!